when loneliness strikes
Tuesday, February 25, 2014.

life has never been so boring and lonely since im back here in my hometown.
despite knowing the fact to enjoy the sweetness of doing nothing, life seems so unreal to me now.
waking up not to the irritating alarm but the backache of timeless sleep.
aimlessly wondering around the house even though i have the ability to walk to each and every corner with blinded eyes.
talking to non other than the walls or myself...
is this where my soul belongs?

yes, its my home.
my family's here.
at times, i need to put up with tantrums and rage from my parents but so do them.
it has never been harder to live with arguments between you and your parents.
obviously you know that there's affection in between, but sometimes, toleration has its limitation and this is where you can find the roots of my arguments with them.

all thats left of me now, is that crappy exam 3 days ahead with an unsolved argument with my dad.
while whatsapp, facebook, line, wechat or any social networks of mine seem dead to me coz it hadnt been ringing for a while. may be they are really dead. IDK.

i know the downfalls of being a passive person; not able to express thoughts and feelings; even harder to approach someone even if you miss them, well, this certainly nails my main problem of loneliness. Perhaps, i kinda have to learn to live with it.
cheers to the lonely people out there.