IMMUNE SYSTEM .....pls work....
Friday, July 23, 2010.

she herself dunnno y she reacted so .......so.....abnormally....
its not a big deal anyway!
is she too sensitive???
or its juz a normal case as wat he said...
its by accidental that she click on the call log of his phone and saw something...that she noe that will trigger her heart....
she shouldnt have played on his phone at the very beginning...
by that...the whole night was ruined by her stupid and useless feeling....
faked by a smile.....she wans to go home fast.....
and cry under her blanket.....although its a rather thin and torn one....
at least.....it gives her some sort of comfort ......
she doesnt wan to tell him wat she feels as its not his problem.....(at least this is wat she thought)
but.....
she is for sure a bad and lousy actress which portrays all the feeling she feels in her heart on her face.....she felt sorry for him.....really......

her heart was as if stabbed by thousands of knives.....
alone....she walked .....with tears cant held back....
she juz cant hold it BACK!
wat to do?? may be when tears are shed....onli will she feel better...

she noe that deep down in her heart...she should keep this feeling as low profile as posssible...
as she appreciate him a lot....
nothing unessessary can ruin this relationship with him....
but....the feeling of insecure is still there...
keeping in touch with a previous lover is a normal thing....
although there's nothing in between them now...but still...
there was something....
dun ever deny this fact....
not that she dun trust him....is juz that feelings are sometimes uncontrollable...
may be today you dun feel anything for her.....
but no one can guarantee you will not fall for her in the future.....
she swear that she treated him with all her heart...
and never did she betray him a single time...
but her relationship can never be guaranteed....
this is wat she felt...- the insecurity.....despite how much his words camouflage it to console her...

one things for sure.....she have to be immune to this kind of things.....
she need to....coz it hurts her a lot.....
she cant afford the pain she previously felt.....
she is weak....
immune system! PLS WORK!!!!!
no time for lagging.....

signing of with a scorching heart....