watever u wan it to be....
Friday, April 30, 2010.

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请问???
Wednesday, April 28, 2010.

对你来说...

什么才算是一段爱情呢?

空虚时找个人聊聊...聊闷了就撇开他....

还是纯粹的一见钟情???

或者想要跟世界宣布"我终于有男/女朋友了!!!!!" "去庆祝???"

有些事情真的需要公告天下吗??

到底什么才是真正的爱呢???

我个人认为.....只有寻找到一个与自己拥有相同爱情的定义的人....

那段感情才能稳固....



曾经有你时...

我永远都充满力量....

因为你给了我依靠...

而我相信你是永远不会令我失望的....

所以每当挫折迎面而来....

无论外面的风有多大....

我都相信有你会保护我....

拉我到安全的地方去....

你...不会让任何事情伤害我.......



可是往往的依靠....

终有一天会倒塌....

而我也学会了要靠自己.....

你让我受的痛....我没齿难忘....

因为.....他让我更坚强.....

可是有时我也会偷偷的问自己..

你心里还有我吗???

无论答案是与否......不重要.....改变不了什么....

那为什么我还要去想呢???

多来烦......



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请问你又在想什么呢???

我一直在给机会去了解你...

可是.....

就是想不通你的爱情的定义是什么....

我在你心里是什么???

我到底对你重要吗???

是唯一一个吗???

很明显.....你回答不了我的问题........

不过我会等待你的答案.......

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prayer?
Monday, April 26, 2010.

here....now.....
i'm pleading for God's strength and faith....
to make me follow my time table as scheduled...
to make me concentrate on whatever things that i should.....
to look upon my weaknesses and fear and to overcome it with courage and determination.....
lastly to finish my syllabus in time......
god damn exam.....

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This Is ME.....
Friday, April 23, 2010.

I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show
It's time to let you know
To let you know


This is real,
this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed be now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me


Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark?
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star?
Even though it's seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed be now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me


You're the voice
I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you


This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed be now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be,
yeahThis is me

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realization for a fren.....
Wednesday, April 21, 2010.

at this point of life,

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the journey to the pass....
Tuesday, April 20, 2010.

she sat in the school bus....
awaiting for it to start its journey ...
looking out of the window......
she thought of the life she'd been through so far....
asked herself countless times whats her purpose of life....
whats god's mission for her..??
luckily...she 'd had a clear mind that morning...
she looked at things more clearly compared To the pass....
she noes wats happening....and now..
she realize that all she;d done during secondary school...
was juz a dream....or perhaps an experience which brought her so far now...
however....there;s never an ending to it...
her pass 18 years of learning and striving for success in secondary school is juz the basic things that she is required to possess.....
so that she can be able to stand up when she falls...and when she;s alone...
yea....she finally realized it....
but are they all enough to make her stronger???
are they really sufficient to support her when the sky falls..or when the devastating storms invade?
otherwise....they are juz dreams....
she've been dreaming for the pass 18 years....
learnt nothing....
that is y she is so easily defeated now....is she dreaming all these years??
bus stops....ppl squeezing out.....she awaken and smiled.......

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explanation.......
Monday, April 19, 2010.

explanation for the last post......


it all ended.....the BAD DAY....
you know wat?
last friday was the lousiest day i"ve ever been through in my life...
duh.... though its like the beginning of things...but for me...
its already like the end of the world...
doors locked with my roomkey inside my room.....
which means i have to spend the whole weekend in my living room without any resources....
as in toothbrush....facial foam..shampoo...towel..most of all...my SPECS!!!
i'm blind without it...."dont you understand it?" -refering to the one who sell fish~~
ok fine.....its sounded so yucky right without those equipment with you to clean yourself up...
dun even ask about clothes.....
so....after lamenting bout it....i'd accept my fault and i've tried figuring out what could help me get out of this mess initially...
( skip those part which i dun wanna talk about....coz it will be like scolding someone which i would not like to share here - in short- she's a total freak-)

next i discover that my bio report....i did at home which i saved at home...
ITS GONE!!!
i was like what the hell's wrong with me???
ok fine....i accept my faith for that day again...
and start moving on...REDO!!!
after completing with my discussion part.....i saved it for like ten times perhaps....to make sure it really can be found after that...
little did i noe that....LUCK ISNT REALLY WITH ME ON THAT DAY....
the whole file that i saved was lost again...
in case i haven told u bout my laptop....its now dead.....means...i;m deprived of the most important gadgets that i should have in college.....its pathetic i tell you...
back to the report....
i juz cant accept the fact....its juz too much for me...
so broke down...
"a bang " on the table and i went off tearing beside the window...
the feeling is like shit!!!!
after calming down....
i went on with my work all over again...
and this time....i manage to finish my discussion part safe and sound....
thank god....=)

i'm grateful to have my two kind-hearted housemates with me....
especially kerhyin who alwayz helped me out and lend me all the things for the night...
yea...i slept on the sofa...feeeding those hungry mosquitoes with my tasty blood....
thanks to whom?? myself????
i juz cant believe i have befrended someone who cant wait to get out of the trouble when all of us in the room is figuring out a way to solve it.......she can act so well....so...ignorant??? can u???
watever...enough of that....dun wanna provoke myself again....

and yea....thats the weekend i had....bla...enough of explaining which i dun really like...
i jux dun like to EXPLAIN THINGS@@@ hehe....=)
have a nice day peeps!!
good luck!!

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wasted effort....
Friday, April 16, 2010.

how can u treat me like that??? god...
i did nothing wrong!!!!
after all the effort i put in....
u tell me thats the waste of time???
i feeel the pain god....
its tearing me up now....
the whole report gone!!!!! juz like that??
i spent the whole afternoon for it and u tell me its gone juz like that?
what is this god..
what is all this mess??
i've had enough!
i have no keys to my room tonight...
and this is how u treat me??? god??
wat do u wan from me???
i really cant take it ANYMORE...
i'm too weak for that now...
pls....give me some chances to move on...
i'm tired....i'm torn....
i said ITS ENOUGH!!!!!

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the second corridor.....
Thursday, April 15, 2010.

难道爱情真的能让人神魂颠倒吗？

别人说，爱一个人无罪，喜欢一个人也无罪。。。但我觉得当你爱一个人爱到太辛苦时。。。

其实爱是有罪的。。。。。

而这个罪。。落在自己身上。。。

因为你爱他多过爱自己。。。

你珍惜他多过珍惜你自己。。。

你用你这辈子中的时间。。。做些没结果的事情。。。

为他烦恼。。。而他一点都不知道。。。

他不需知道。。。。因为知道了又如何？？？ 改变不了什么。。。。你有罪！！！

罪在自己在不对的时间喜欢对的人。。。。。



我的感情世界就是那么复杂。。。

如今。。。进入了人生的第二段爱情corridor。。。。

开了门。。。走到一半才发现前面有个坑。。。。，

回头路已改变了许多。。。

站在如此迷茫的路上。。。

我愣住了。。。

心想：如果当初我没把第二个门打开。。。。

一定不会有这样的情况。。。。

人生就是如此现实。。

就算我不打开这扇门。。。。

结果也会是一样。。。。因为命运已帮我决定好了。。。

无论我打开那一扇门。。。。那段路也是一段无尾路.....

想找一段简单的爱情真的这样难吗？？？？ 这一生中，我爱过，放手，祝福”的人有两个。。。

为什么我就是要做等待幸福到来的那个人？？？
机会来了又不去争取。。。结果有白白流失了两段应有结果的感情。。。。
为什我做人就是那么不珍惜事情？？？
为什么一定要等到机会走了才来后悔。。。？？
千万个辛酸的为什么？？？

睡不着。。。是热到睡不着还是心烦到睡不着呢？？？
见到我时。。。不要问我发生了什么事，因为根本没有发生任何事。。。多情自古空与恨。。。。
我只能回答我目前当了现代猪八戒。。。。=）
我没事。。。你放心。。。。
默默祝福你。。。。


moral of the story :
1) 我不会再让下一个机会在我手中流失。。。。， 因为我会对不起自己。。。
2）你知道为什么家长都劝孩子们专注于学业吗？？ 因为读书是一个“种花得花。。。种痘得豆”的东西。。。。从来不用你担心值不值得花那么多时间在读书身上。。。。因为你读什么。。。读多少，那知识都会让你成长。。。陪伴你到老。。。。。unlike 爱情。。。可以那么长，也可以那么短。。。可以浪漫。。。也可以那么残酷无情。。。。

人生不是一场戏。。。。因为它不能有take2.....

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T.T
Monday, April 12, 2010.

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at the verge of fainting.....
Wednesday, April 7, 2010.

SIENZZZZ!!!!!
neverending exams...gonna make me crazy!!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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What the FART!
Thursday, April 1, 2010.

WHAT THE FISH!!!
i really dun mean to start my post this way...
but a series of unfortunate events make a mess out of me!!!
" ShXT" those who cant help out and cause the trouble
"ShXT" those who created the stupidest plan on earth.....that make us in this trouble...
"shXt" those who have no bloody brains....
damn IT....sorry for all these rude words ...
i juz cant help it...
too furious at this particular moment....
leave some words here to release stress...
=.=

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