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where'd you go???
Tuesday, November 29, 2011.

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"
i miss you....LG

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过路人。。。。。
Sunday, November 27, 2011.

为什么每一次都要因为group outing 才能说到话?
不见你平时自动跟我说话??
不是我刻意爱理不理你。。。
是真的你令我觉得。。。
我根本不像你的朋友。。。。。
我们彼此已没有共同话题。。。
你宁愿花你全部的时间在他们身上。。。
却也一点也不留给我。。
你说我变得粗鲁了。。。
为什么你又不说你最近交流的人都很斯文。。
请你不要把我跟他们比。。。
我知道。。我不比她们善解人意。。。
不比她们对你斯文体贴。。。。
不比她们美丽可爱。。。
请不要问我为什么我对你爱理不理的。。。
因为我对每个男生都是这样。。。
我只会对曾经的你温柔撒娇。。。
可是你失去了我。。。
我需要对你像以前那样嘛???
你说你知道应该怎么做。。。
可是我却认为你一点也不会处理事情。。。
请你不要一次又一次地。。。
伤害我对你的心。。。
我封锁了这颗心。。。是因为它再也承受不了你对他的伤害。。。
如果当时。。。我和她都在场。。。
也许。。。你关心的人一定不是我。。。
因为你只会对一些比我漂亮比我斯文的人好。。。
更能肯定的是。。。。
我现在已不曾在你脑海或心中出现过。。。
你可以反驳我写的东西。。。
可是你不曾反驳过。。。
就证明。。。你再也不关心。。。
不知多久,你没看我写的东西。。。
也许你再也不会看了。。。。

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weekends........again.....
Friday, November 25, 2011.

OMG its weekend again...
its like everyone is bringing bfs bac ....
chilling the whole weekend out....!
wat should i do???
hmmm....luckily i still have chin with me.....
=)
sigh sigh sigh!!!!! GRRRRR!!!!!
kays........
need to spend some time figure out how to fill in all these SINGLE time......=)
DRAMA and movies perhaps.....?? HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

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Wednesday, November 23, 2011.

真的很讨厌被可怜的感觉。。。

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F!!! i just hate wednesday....

had a hard day today...
didnt go as smooth as it seems....
sigh....
who to blame???
myself of course...
for not preparing wisely may be???
or blame myself for not practicing...?
im kinda worry for my OSCE exam in december..
clinical skills were suppose to be wat i like the most..
but after today...
it made me felt that i was stupid!
so stupid that i cant even communicate well with the stimulated patient...
im starting to wonder who am i now....
and wat did i achieve so far...?
am i having too much fun until i neglected my studies??
i thought i was on the right track.,..
oh come on...
im starting to pity myself...
F! i need to fight bac my confidence....
to be the one that ppl could look up to......
F myself man!

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生日
Tuesday, November 22, 2011.

生日时。。。
不需要特别的热闹。。
不需要。。特别多的朋友。。一起庆祝。。
只要能与一些真的记得自己的生日的人。。。
在乎自己的人庆祝。。。
哪怕只是一两位。。。都已温暖我的心。。。。=)
小时候。。。很喜欢多多人和我一起庆祝。。
因为都有很多礼物收。。! 开心死。。。。!!! 哈哈哈
渐渐长大了。。。
就觉得。。生日能简简单单的跟特别的人庆祝。。。
就能很满足。。。。=)
希望每年的生日。。。
都会有特别的人与我一起度过。。。。=)
好友们与亲人的存在。。。。
就是世上最美好的事!!!!! =)

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把今天的blogpost献给一位值得深交的好友。。。。
Monday, November 21, 2011.



今天。。。很特别。。。
因为我要感谢一位认识了三年的好朋友。。
可能表面上。。。
不亲密。。。没有什么身体接触。。。
可是。。。
就是有这份的尊重的存在。。
让我与他在一起时。。很舒服。。。
谢谢他每一天都不停的追看我的生活点滴。。。。
就是有这种很感激很感动的感觉。。。
因为他一直都很贴心。。。
曾经送过我两份礼物。。。
但每一份。。。都曾想过。。。放过心思。。
并不是随随便便的一份礼物。。。
每一段回忆都很深刻。。。。
今天看见了的那份礼物。。。
真的把我吓瞪了。。。
好感动!!!!!!!!
就有股冲动去抱你!!!
谢谢你。。。。炜豪。。。=)

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im not perfect.......
Sunday, November 20, 2011.

probably.....im just another girl next door...
ordinary looking....not that hot and pretty like others....
but im just happy for not being that pretty or that perfect...
coz onli because of this...
i felt that im human...
alive to feel all the mistakes...
alive to experience all the not so perfect things in life that will shape me into a better person..
being not to take everything for granted...
and learning to appreciate what i gained from hardwork...
perhaps...
we just need to be not so perfect to learn....=)

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又一个课程

为有献上默默地祝福。。。
学会大方。。。
是一件不容易的事。。。
可是。。我愿意学习。。
学习怎么去接受。。。
怎么去原谅。。。怎么做个更好的自己。。。
仇恨。。嫉妒。。。都不是什么好东西。。。
只会更贬低自己。。。
这是人生的一个课程。。。。
每个人都会经历。。。
只是看你能不能从中体会到应该体会的东西。。。
体会了。。。就应该学习。。
也许它就是一个终生受用的良好性格或习惯。。。=)
对。。。我要努力学习大方。。。=)
加油。。。。。。。

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thanks......
Tuesday, November 15, 2011.

eric cheng!
u scared me with your philosophical stuffs.....
and make me more emo....
grrr!!!!!!!!!
scared sei me!!!!
but thanks.....it helps a lot....
and the stupid face of T!
W!
thanks for those who cared...and still do....=)

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{ 11:20 PM }



again.....u lost my trust.....

will not be part of your life anymore....
if she seems so perfect to you...
i should be happy....
ive no right to comment on anything...
go ahead and try....and see for yourself...
whether is she worth your love and your affection towards her..
for once...
i thought that i am important to you...
but i was fooled ....
fooled so much that i actually believe that i meant something to you...
lust that cause them all....
i meant nothing! nothing at all...
well....if thats wat u wished for ...
fine。。。。
i wont ever care or give a damn bout you...
its over for me and you....

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probably.....
Monday, November 14, 2011.

if ever one day i saw you going out with another girl......
dating....
i would probably...
tell myself to ignore my feelings....
and move on.....
shouldnt i?
the moment when i thought of you...
you probably was with another girl...
and thinking of another girl....texting....
after watching the movie...
probably you 'd thought of another girl but not me...
but all i wanna say is....
i onli thought of you when i saw the movie...
sometimes love last but sometimes it hurts instead.....

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Sunday, November 13, 2011.

当每个男生都为她们神魂颠倒的当儿。。。
我依然活得自由自在。。。
因为我在众目睽睽下。。
依然保持原本的我。。
永不为比较而改变自己。。。

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{ 11:43 AM }




Finally i see your smile.....=)
hope that you'll talk to me like just now...tomorrow...
you had stop laughing like mad for one week...
its already critical to me....
hope that youre brought bac out of ISU tomolo.....

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shot to death without a reason?
Saturday, November 12, 2011.

what happen between me and you which was initially close?
i dont feel the bonding between me and you anymore.....
y is that so??
did i do anything wrong???
if i do....as a fren u should tell me...
and not ignoring me the whole week..
i felt invisible....
the feeling is just bad...
tried to make a conversation but ended up with a either a short reply...
or a "stand away from me!!!" reply.....
sigh...
anyway...i dun feel like talking anymore..
up to you....

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{ 12:52 PM }



突然很想你。。。。。。。
Friday, November 11, 2011.

却没有勇气翻阅以往的回忆。。。。
因为目前只记得美好的回忆。。。
往往就是这些回忆让人感触。。。。
很久没有跟你聊了。。。
你好吗???
只想对你说。。。我很想你。。。<3

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{ 11:29 AM }




谢谢你。。。。曾经喜欢我。。。。。
<3.......

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{ 12:06 AM }



cheer me up......=(
Wednesday, November 9, 2011.

unhappy day today.....
though i wish it was the other way round...
had a hectic day with loads of lecture....
and my emo feeling starts coming bac...
i thought attending choir make me happy...
but as days go by....
i dun feel like going to it anymore...
wanted a duet.....
but end up not as good as others...
and the feeling sucks...
im bac and having dinner now....and its 9 30 at night....
4 lecture notes undone..
and 15 more old lecture notes to be done...
my eyes are dry.....and this definately contributes to my moody feelings today...
cheer me up anyone???
sigh.....
hoping for tomolo or perhaps a day that i can mix with INTECOM ppl..
coz those moments are the onli one will make me happy now....

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songs
Tuesday, November 8, 2011.

listen to those songs brings bac those memories with u....
those times....those feelings....
those places you brought me.....
i miss you...=)
<3.......the one you once was......

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hehe......=)
Sunday, November 6, 2011.

HALLO!!! anybody misses me today????
today's gonna be another AWESOME day in ipoh!!!! =)
accompanied by piano, TV, FOOD, bed, my own spacious study room...
and most of all.....Parent's LoVe!!!! <3<3<3...
i wonder they if they can buy a house in KL and we live together there...hmmm..
anywayz~!! gonna treasure every moment! =)))
HAPPPYYYYY!!!!!!!! DDAAAAYYYYY!!!! WOOWOWOWOW!!!!

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@.@....
Saturday, November 5, 2011.

went out the whole day to buy and do stuffs....
and in the end...
not reading a single thing i brought all the way from KL...
when i start to read...
my mind say stop!!!!GO TO SLEEP!!!!!
i noe that i have tonnes to finish...
if i sleep now...
i will never finish the load of work!!
sigh...
should i sleep or should i not????
i can see the blood vessels of my left eye dilating..
swelling, redness, heat, pain of both eyes......
andluckily...there's no lost of function.....
in conclusion....before all the 5 cardinal signs appear....
i've decided to sleep....
coz i dun wanna loose my eyes.....@.@......

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Out of love...
Friday, November 4, 2011.

You can never estimate what a girl can do for a boy if she loves him..... Unless the girl doesn't treasure her life and has been fooling around all the time..... Dun ask a girl y she's willing to sacrifice ...... CoZ the onli answer is love.... Unlike boys.... Who is always filled with curiosity..... Anyway.... Pls... To all guys out there...... Treasure girls who fall for you..... And when u reach a certain point of your life....when u finally realize the girl you love will never be yours.... Dun regret.... CoZ it's you who let go of her hand....

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{ 9:46 PM }



SWIM...=)

last night was the first night i went swimming and was forced to sit on top of a guy's shoulder.....for a fight!!!AHHHA...
shit! blushing!!!!!
PAISEH nia!!!
but i was indeed FUN!!!!! =p
to the DP....sorry for being so heavy...
and wayne! u owe me a meal for scratching my hand and causes an abrasion!
GRRRRRR!!!!
too bad Riggie and svei was not there.....
if not ...the night will be more EXCITING.....=))))

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nothing is permanent......
Thursday, November 3, 2011.

there is no forever....
even u believe there is.....
though the thing is under your control..
but there's alwayz something that will destroy wat u planned....
just like ppl...
they come and go....
excluding hi-bye frenz...
true frenz may come into your life at a certain stage of life...
but in the end...
for no reason....
they will drift themselves away...
and you end up not being close to them anymore...
hmmmm.....
is this wat life tells us to learn??
to be independent enough???
to be tough enough to let go ......
but y do ppl leave at the first place??
i dun like that! no one does!
GRRRR! *trying to be childish for a while*
anyway.......bye past....hello present.....
i will be grateful and appreciate wat i have now ...=)
just that i miss those childhood memories...and those stories that are left behind...and kept in those dusty cupboards of mine....=)
i treasure every moment.....=)
i love you lee ji ching....=) your past is just awesome...=)
and thanks mommy and daddy for making me who i am today....=))))

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glass
Wednesday, November 2, 2011.

i felt so very bad and disgusted at this MOMENT>......
pls give me a hug and tell me everything is fine and its over....
give me a new life...
live with me.....
support me..
hold me.....when i fall....
just pls dun let me fall...
im too fragile now.....

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{ 10:39 PM }



empty.....

i just dont understand wat am i thinking recently.
temptation shouldnt have rule over my brain and rationality...
i kept telling myself not to do it....controlling myself so badly..
and in the end...it all ruin due to my poor self control....
plus....
having some small issues with my dad recently...
sorry mom...for giving you that annoying voice when u speak to me on the phone..
sometimes.....
5 calls a day is just too much....
not forgetting another 3 calls from dad....
isnt it abit too over??
im not complaining or waT.....
but wats the point???
and because i voice out my opinion on that...
my dad got pissed off.....
and din bother to pick up my call...
yea....wats my problem now...!~
damn !!!!!!!
wats wrong today????
not to be violent here....but someone pls slap me!!!!!!!!!!
i need to feel something....
coz i felt empty at this very moment......=(

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{ 10:10 PM }



SHE

Crazy.Loving.Loud.Bossy.Boyish.Sporting.Adventurous

Claim herself to be street smart.Mysterious and Passionate.Loves exploring her limitations by trying out new things.Difficulties? NAH! one can never read from her appearance.time and sincerity is the key. may look joyous but secure a fragile heart.*smackface*


her life

studying
Music
Sing
EAT
Sleep
Drama marathon!
Listening rather than talking
shopping
pretend to be clever *wink*

What she thinks?

Do a bunch of crazy and random things before she dies cuzzzzz there's just ONE LIFE to live!
despite every emo posts, she survives. guess this is the only place where she can face all her obstacles in life by putting them all in words.

Her Story

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thanks for leaving your footsteps in my life =)