a story on he and she
Wednesday, December 11, 2013.

"hey...how are u?" followed with a few general questions that a usual acquaintance may ask....

shes cracking up her brain to squeeze out questions that appear to be more personal and meant more than just acquaintances to ask about.

unfortunately, the conversation came to an awkward silence.

a few years ago, he was her hero

as he was always there for her ups and downs

guiding her way through her secondary school years coloured in grey.

he is the light, shining over the dark pavement

not forgetting the only person who believes in her and had faith in her.

a guardian angel that one could ever ask for.

a friend that meant so much, so hurtful to loose.

12 years ago, they knew each other.

naive little kids were their role to play.

they went tuition, they sat together, they laughed with hands on their tummy.

they kept in touch all these years by mails, messages, or even greeting cards.

she feels the same towards him all this while, the guardian angle she cant afford to loose.

never did she know he's never the same old guy after a few years abroad.

she felt so far from him by the way he treated her.

for 5 years, he had unknowingly built a strong concrete wall, a firewall, between him and her.

may be he tried to be better, may be he is trying to hide his weakness away from all the people he know, or perhaps, he is just not into her anymore. not even close friends.

in bitter sweet disappointment after a few times of effort trying to mend this friendship back to its original, she decided to give up as each conversation ended like a knife running through her heart. she no longer feels happy and carefree talking to him. when one side fails to try and put in effort in a friendship, you quit. despite giving everything she could to try to mend this friendship that she treasure, it can never revert back to the old them.

she left, accepting the fact that the only guardian angel for her is she herself.