Creepy past
Monday, October 31, 2011.

Aiks!!!!! Have to keep a distance from u....... Scared!!!!!!!!!!

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{ 11:44 PM }

another weekend which worth my time...=)
Sunday, October 30, 2011.

it was indeed an amazing weekend i had......
this week was hectic.....
it started off when i join the Halloween night committee....
and thank god it ended quite well last friday.....=)
although we still didnt manage to cover the cost...
at least we tried our best....
everyone...=) we deserve something as a gift...
so.....i've made a decision.to have fun in genting ..supporting my fren TEAH's sister
who made it to TOP TEn finalist of Miss Astro Chinese International...=)
and without letting us down...she made it into top FIVE!
that was so awesome!!!!...=)
little did i noe that the most ideal weight for my height is 48 kg!!!!
OMG.....guess how much i exceeded it....Shyt!!!
and without fail...i ate a lot...and spend A LOT!!!!!!
aiks!! I felt so guilty!!!!!!! i need exercise....!!!
the most important part is that i didnt study at all......20 lecture notes....still counting.....untouch.....=) wan mei!!
and i screwed my friday test....
not studying a single thing before exam.....
yey! nice job for screwing the test...obtaining a C...=) ahha..,
was grateful enough that i didnt failed the test...=)
well....this weekend ended well indeed...
it was tiring....and i lost most of the precious studying time...
but for me...it was worth the time..
coz i dun really like to take life so seriously..
occasional fun is needed at certain stage of our lives....=)
frenz worth the investment of my time...
without you all...i wont be wat i am today...=)
thanks every single one of you...=)
EC,C,G,,WH,T,SW,KY, SH...and many more of coz.....=)

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{ 10:49 PM }

a note to you.....
Wednesday, October 26, 2011.

sometimes....i just felt so guilty.....
not thinkin bout your feeelings when other ppl thought bout mine...
i dun really noe how u feel....
but i just hope that everything goes fine with u and your group of frenz...
i dun quite understand how u think now..
coz din talk to you for quite some while..
sometimes...i just have the urge to walk towards you and ask u personally how do you do??? and how u felt recently.....
coz i dun see the smile in your face when ure with us...the intec ppl...
anyhow.....if u need a fren to talk to..
im here.....
just wanna let you noe...that youre never alone...
if u get to see this.....
i hope that u could stand bac up...and smile like u use to smile..
in front of us...the INTECans....
not just smiling to your new group of frenz out there...
come bac to us if u wan to.....
again...take care..

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{ 10:46 PM }

I'm so rude!!!
Sunday, October 23, 2011.

Oooo..... Mom's cooking for me today!!!:) it's like a birthday party in advance:)))) never had this kind off feeling for such a long time..... But any how...... I felt so bad at shouting and raising my voice today.... May be my fren was right.... Ive change to become rude..... But what do you expect me to do if I was constantly being shouted at my face and accused for doing something that I've not done wrong??? Yes... I have to defend..., but the onli way to stop being bullied is to be louder than them.... But for a girl it's too rude to do so.... I'm very very sorry... Y am I constantly doing something that is wrong???? I mean wat should I actually do when the same situation happens again and I felt insulted ???I noe they don't mean it coZ they are my frenz..... But I seriously dunno how to react other than being louder.....:( I have to think !!!!!!!! And change a way to counteract the problem..... Nites frenz!!!:))

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{ 1:31 AM }

thanks for everything my frens....=)
Thursday, October 20, 2011.

its my blog......
its my feelings.....
if anyone felt insulted bout wat i wrote....
im sorry.....
arent true frens are those who accept you for who you are....
if you arent....and i cant help it either...
i would love to take this opportunity to thank all my frenz...
who realy supported me and accompanying me through those difficult times...
and those who never leave me alone when im down.....
you noe who you are....=) all of you....=)
not forgetting those who alwayz follows my blog post....
i heart you guys man!!!!
you guys rock!!!! <3 <3

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{ 6:26 PM }

Wednesday, October 19, 2011.

I saw her walking towards your rOom as I walk to uni for choir practice.... For that very moment... My heart sang..... I couldn't answer my mom's question properly..... As if my heart is controlling my brain..... I'm out of control.... The feeling of out of control is so scary...... The feeling now is much more calm..... I need to try to learn how to let go of you.... How many times should I get hurt before I could let go..... I need to remind myself.... If he is happy with her.... Let it be... Afterall she Is a more compatible partner compare to I am......well she is definitely more bEautiful than I am.... And her character suits him well enough..... From the bottom of my heart..... I wish you can be tOgether happily..... Sorry I couldn't force myself to be frenz with her.... As long as you're happy .... Even if I'm hurt.... I will be happy too......

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{ 7:51 PM }

you shut the door......

the moment u shut the lift....
you shut my heart......
you noe that i was on my way....
the least thing that u can do .....
which is to keep the lift open and let me come in...
but then....you shut the door....
well....
sorry for ignoring you all these while...
but...
youre still a wonderful fren in my heart...
although i dun agree on wat u usually do....
but thats you.....
as a fren....i have accepted for who you are...

i notice that u seldom mix with intec ppl anymore..
is it because of me...alwayz mixing around with them???
which makes you feel uneasy...??
im sorry.....
and i hope that u can find true frenz around IMU....
which will be there when u need them....

but your gesture today....
is really disappointing....
i guess.....i gave you too much hatred after all.....
im sorry......
hope to see you smile soon.....=)

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{ 6:09 PM }

指望
Tuesday, October 18, 2011.

怕不怕被拒絕怕不怕被省略
你怕不怕被淪落在宿命中妥協

當真愛宣告從缺
驕傲的玫瑰正一片一片枯萎
儘管你抱歉懺悔
真心一旦墜跌就不能飛

別指望我諒解別指望我體會
愛不是點頭就能挽回
快樂或傷悲沒什麼分別
心碎到終點會迎刃而解
別指望我諒解別指望我體會
愛不是注定要填你的缺
太多的是非來不及杜絕
更不想依戀這殘缺的美
殘缺的迂迴

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{ 12:21 AM }

从心出发
Monday, October 17, 2011.

几时我才能学会成熟的爱？？？
几时我才会学会原谅？？？
仿佛内心里有一个恶魔。。。一个天使。。。
我知道做人要宽恕。。。容忍。。。
不要执著。。。要向前看。。。。
做人要学会体会别人的感受。。。。体会人生。。。
时间会过。。。痛也会逐渐消失。。。
爱也是。。。
曾经爱你的我。。。如今已不再执著的爱你。。。
因为你不是我要的。。。
宽恕你做的一切。。。会让我更快乐。。。
可是。。心里的恶魔天使。。。此终不让我做到这一点。。。
很抱歉。。。。因为你的粗心。。。善忘。。。
忘掉了你曾经的诺言。。。
让我十分失望。。。
我既然做了当初的决定。。。就应该能够勇敢的接受成果。。
很抱歉。。。之前一直的责骂。。。
我知道是不应该。。。
可是当时的我实在无法接受现在的你。。。所做的一切一切。。。。
失望的当儿。。。爱也逐渐消失了。。。
也许我应该勇敢地面对将来有关你更多更多难听的消息。。。
鼓起勇气。。。。从心再出发。。。。
寻找真正的我。。。。
再次的抱歉。。。我不是要动粗的。。。。

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{ 9:35 PM }

pls dun pretend that nothing has happen between u and her...
if u did it....
just act the way both of u used to be.....
DUN FAKE IN FRONT OF ME!

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{ 12:58 PM }

光良 - 握你的手
Tuesday, October 11, 2011.

专辑:光芒
握你的手
作词：姚若龙　作曲：光良　编曲：吕圣斐
山顶的风凉的想钻进我内心
沉默是我们最近唯一的话题
看曾经亲密的爱慢慢像友谊
爱是流星　一坠落就不停
我们尝试让彼此差异能隐形
遗憾的是回避不能解决问题
当我疲倦的凝望妳憔悴表情
再不舍得　也该让你远离
握你的手坚持到最后一秒钟
哪怕爱要冰凉了　
至少让回忆是暖的
了解比爱难多了　
我们都尽力了
也许温柔是停止(再)挽留
握你的手　像耳语轻声说保重
让眼睛就算湿了　不只是痛也有感动
以前每一次挥手都为了再握手
但这一次是为了放手

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{ 5:34 PM }

fuck off!

just got to noe that he fetch her out for lunch....
and yet i still feel something.....
which means i haven let go of it completely...
but i shouldn have give a damn bout it!
nah! do watever you wan!
i will just live my life to the MAX! i wan to be HAPPY! =)
with all my frenz around....
i think i can live a better life without him!
yea! just FUCK the hell off!
im way better than u think i am!
i dun need to be a girl who needs a man....
i wan to be the girl a man needs!
and i will be ...one fine day....=)
the right man....=)

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{ 1:33 PM }

我怀念你。。。。。。
Friday, October 7, 2011.

这几个星期以来。。。
自己都在避免这有关于你的东西与事情。。。
爸妈给的鼓励。。不能白费！
当我一开始想你时。。。。
潜意识的就会阻止自己再回想。。。。
我不喜欢那种伤心了。。。。
因为他让我过着颓废的生活。。。。
这几天都有到公园散步。。。
早晨。。。看见别人一家大小地到那儿。。。
散散步。。。有说有笑的。。。好温馨。。。好幸福。。。
可是。。。我知道。。如果我和他在一起。。。
是不可能有这样的结局。。。。
那。。。。我何必执著呢？？？
我要的是幸福美满的家庭。。。。
不是怀疑这怀疑那的。。。
我只能告诉自己。。。。
那个在我眼前的。。。。已不是我喜欢的那个人。。。
我喜欢的那个颜锦圣早已不存在了。。。。
那些回忆只能被好好地怀念。。。
我爱的人。。。已死了。。。。。。。

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{ 9:14 PM }

hearts.....mommy daddy...=)
Sunday, October 2, 2011.

thanks mom and dad!!!!
u 've made my day feel revive again.....=)
i will study hard to repay you all....
you all are my everything.....
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!! FOR ETERNITY!!!!!!
i miss you all!!! will study hard till next next week when we get to meet again.....=)
and i will start to be active again!!!! WOHOO!!!!!