the third dan grading.......which marks the end of year 2010
Friday, December 31, 2010.

yohoo!!! finish grading dy......
was stress up before that....what makes things worse is that ..
i twisted my knee a night before the test....
and i was certainly screwed up!
can u imagine life with an aching leg??
i can even stand properly....
what more?? other techniques??
cant sleep last night.....and the pain in my knee was killing me silently...
was awake at 4.45 in the morning...while training starts unforgivingly at eight in the morning...
panic!! !!!! !!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
then....i emo-ed the whole morning...while undergoing training...
i admitted that i might not be the best in taekwondo...
and i certainly not hoping for the worst taekwondo practitioner....
ok...i will try my best...
firstly, patterns......hmmm..i could say it was quite well done.... except i had quite a hard landing after a mid-air kick...
next, one step sparring..leading to knife self defence and grabbing techniques...
next sparring!!! GOSh!!! jesus christ! i haven been sparring for half a year.....
therefore .....i sucks!!!
lastly breaking........SURPRISES were keeping me awake during the whole test...
i was told to break a BRICK with my elbow...
at last..i gave it a try...and it ended quite well as in i din break my elbow...
and the BRICK din break oso..HAHAHA.......
in the end.....internal bleeding....
when i was gettin ready for the next power breaking test....
suddenly master khoo said i was being promoted to third dan directly without breaking a single plank!
i was FURIOUS.....i dun wanna get this grade without any pride and glory...
i take that grade because i deserve it......
in the end...i suggested breaking a plank...using my hand...and it ended up well..
yeah...i break.....but i certainly hope to break another plank with my kick....
at least i felt much of a completion.....
hmmm....
after the test.....i felt nothing but a relieve...
relieve for an ending of a december or perhaps a year with something done with much effort...
surprisingly.....i felt no glory in it.....and i'm kinda disappointed....i hope i can perform well...
but will i have the chance????
wel...there are certainly lots of surprises happening around.....we'll see what happen...=)
bye bye 2010......and welcome to another great year.....2011!!!!! i ready for you!!!!

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time to think POSITIVE!!!! + . + / -.- = +
Monday, December 27, 2010.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
BIGGEsT NIGHTMARE!!!!
need to break planks again....T.T.....
one month of training leaDS TO SUCCESS???
i;m not so sure bout that....but wat i;m sure of is that...
i need to work something out this december as i've not done much on studies....
i need to get something done...
in that...i pluck up my courage to challenge myself once more!
take that 3rd dan grading!!!!! GRRRR!! jesus christ!
no training nor exercising for half a year and walah!!
one month of miracles to shape me into a sportswoman once again! WOHOO!
sounds .......DISGUSTING!!!!
my knee problems keep haunting me again......
i think its because of my weight problem......
time to loose some weight and stacks of money....
duh! imagine that i have to fork out RM 380 for that grading...
wat if i failed to pass?? doink! .....dumping money into the big wide ocean...the end....

ok...lets make things look positive.....
i'll pay and i'll take the grading.....
and i'll pass with all patterns well done....
nevertheless....breaking all the super hard planks.....(pls....less bruises for me)
and with good stamina for sparring....never been sparring for half a year....
GOD!!!!
this is way too much!! but i'll handle it WELLL!!!!
I ROCKS!!! WOHOO!!~
fever fever go away!!! BLEKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Tuesday, December 14, 2010.

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我很粗鲁地伤心了一场。。。。
Sunday, December 12, 2010.

曾经有人问我。。。。
我是如何开始我的感情故事。。。
我都回答。。。
不是这样咯！

讲真的。。。
其实我也不是很懂。。。
哈哈。。。就因为我好朋友的一句话。。。
机会来了。。。不要想太多。。。。
不是就永远都不知道。。。。
有时想太多。。。。未必会开花结果。。。。
因为感情这种东西。。。根本不到你控制。。
就算你精挑细算。。到最后。。。也是听天由命。。。
那为何就不先听天由命。。。

有时。。。会听见。。。
自己是第三者。。。。甚至有时真的觉得自己是的时候。。。
不是因为自己是。。。。
而是一人传虚， 万人传实。。。
有时自己会想。。。是不是因为别人割爱。。。自己才得到的呢？？
甚至有人问我。。。你觉得惭愧抢了别人的吗？？
嗨。。。想开点吧李紫菁。。。
为何在意一些不知情的人呢？？？


开始了。。。就应准备接受所有对方的缺点。。。
就应该学会容忍。。。
哈哈幸会。。我遇到的人。。。容忍度高达90%。。
哈哈。。。我体会到他的用心良苦。。。
他的呵护。。
可是。。。时间久了。。。。
就不知他的容忍度是否会下降。。。。
因为。。。我实在是个很难啃的人。。
粗鲁不再说。。。真的一点斯文都没有。。。
还时常对他凶凶。。。
哈哈。。。这个女友好烂哦。。。
但是我就是这样啊。。。
在家。。。男的又是我。。。。女的也是我。。。
从小就扮演儿女的角色。。。
突然间要我做个完完全全的女人。。。
好难哦。。。
我看是时候跟珮雯学习斯文了。。。。
可是其实想起来。。。。我做的所有东西都是希望大家开开心心。。。
想大家一起埲腹大笑而已。。。
我没意要那么粗鲁的。。。。T.T
好伤心哦。。。。
hz.....真的很伤心。。。。。

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AIM? BULL SHIT!
Tuesday, December 7, 2010.

when u tried so hard......
to convince yourself to stop wat u love to do.....
when youre just at the very beginning of your aim...
to achieve wat u wanted to achieve for the pass ten years......
when you are so determine to tell yourself to stop.....
so to get the result you've been longing for...
for....you noe wat u have to sacrifice....
you told youself....."yes.....its not impossible......"

just at this very moment....
where everything was on the right tract...
your confidence increases its momentum.....
and yet...suddenly....
someone just storm in and kick you out on your ass...
and said..." dun give a bull shit out of me...." or merely" BULL SHIT"
in other words.....anything you did was A BULL SHIT!
wat would you think???
and to make things worse....
that so called someone is the one who inspire you do achieve that aim....
you did nothing wrong......nothing....
but just because of that person who gave u a piece of shit just now makes you wonder again...
is it worth it to achieve wat u wanted......

at this very moment....
you feel like screaming...
no one is appreciating wat u did....
even the most inspirational person who inspires you all this while to change disgrace you in that kind of way...
nothing much but a rocket shooting at 100000000000kmph directly at your heart...
you have no tears to roll down...
coz the pain worth more than tears....
sometimes....the devil in you might overpower you and mislead you to end your life...
but luckily....the angel took control of the whole situation....
however....anger and disappointment still persist in your heart......

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