stay strong
Wednesday, July 6, 2011.

i'm scared as my heart shattered into pieces...
i'm lost with no directions....no hand leading my path ahead...
because i noe i'm going to loose u.......
i forget how to live on my own now.....
i did it for the past 18 years of my life.....but a year with u juz erase them all...
ive been crying for the pass four hours......as i'm not ready to be alone yet...
i'm not ready to face the fact to be alone...
all alone in this dark world...
your presence used to be my torch.....
lighting brightly killing the darkness of fear....
u held my hand and been through every obstacles that lies in my path..
youre the strength for me to move on......
but i noe.....after today....
i have to face everything on my own again........
as youre getting sick and tired of me.......being so attached to you...
but so far....i dun think that being attach is wrong......
sigh......being together for so long ....makes me wonder...
how i've changed from the one i used to be before i'm with u....
now.....no one's there for me to rely on.....when i;m down...
no one's there for me to lend me a shoulder as comfortable as yours...
no one will kissed me like the way u used to.....
i miss every single moment of us together......
but i noe there's no turning bac.......
you are who u are.......i cant have bac the person and the character u used to have when u first going after me......anyhow i miss that moment a lot....
tears had been shed.....head is spinning.....
if this is wat it is.....let it be.....i beg mercy from god...
to help me get through this devastating moment......
because this feeling really kills me.....