@ lousy VaLentiNe
Saturday, February 14, 2009.

why does it have to be like that???
today is a lousy day for me....
really lousy one....
it started off quite well in the morning.....
and in the afternoon....
i sat in the living hall....
having a date with the TV for about 5 hours???
watching super trio and canada's next top model....
thinking that this evening will be having a gathering with my chinese tuition teacher...
i'm on cloud nine....
thought of gambling there....
its been a while since we met....
all of a sudden a phone call came and said that the gathering was cancelled due to the teacher's family is back and he's not free....
" then may be we meet next time..." i thought to myself....
so....i'll be free the whole evening....
thinking of wat i could do.....
at last....i spent the whole evening sleeping and watching TV...
its so meaningless.....

then....i went online...and search for some info's bout psychology...
act i've never thought of being a psychologist....
but somehow...my working environment and info's from my friends who are interested in psychology kinda make me feel i wanna noe more bout it....and may be i will considere it as my future career....
so i decided to share this news with my parents....
guess wat...
they banned my idea...
and i told them bout my stand of course...
but to no avail...
they keep on saying that psychologist cant earn a living....
we argued argued and argued....
at last i cant stand it anymore...
pls !! we are in a restaurant at that time...
so i juz kept quiet..
the conversation stopped for quite a while after they had finish expressing their thoughts...

next , another arguement broke out between my parents...
its someting bout" trust"...
the arguement became worst...
i kept quiet...
asking god ....hoping that everything will be okay...
but everthing seems to go worst....
i 'm scared....
too bad i have no siblings to share my fear....
tears roll down....
i cant stand it anymore...
pls!! stop arguing....
do they noe that even if they argue among themselves...
their child will feel hurt and terrible too????
can.t they juz stop that????

why do these things have to happen on valentine's day..
shouldnt it be a lovely and romantic day for a couple???
for me...
its rather a lonely valentine....
but its okay....i'll get over it soon...
there are many valentines still...
as for my parents...
i hope that god will grant them peace and love...
safe them from all the negative thoughts...
protect my family from evils and prevent it from shattering...
i'm so desparate for love....
the love from god..
the love from my parents...
the love from my frenz...and
hopefully the love from my partner....( onli if god send him to me )