一门高深的学问-----等待
Wednesday, February 25, 2009.
好像很旧没在这网上日记写下自己的事情了....最近有点懒惰.....
因为通常当我不开心时才会上网写blog 的....
没办法啊.....
没人听我说话......
上学的上学去了....
还要隔着一片大海......
做工的也上班去了.....
hmm.....今天这么爸妈这么晚了都还没回呢????
一个人在家的感觉有点恐怖...
加上是个寒冷的夜晚......
整个家冷清清的......yee...........
每个星期三, 小朋友们都不会来上课....
所以星期三, 全部老师们都会回来总部一起做东西..
吃了午餐后一起唱christian songs....and do devotion...
devotion is something like sharing.....
they extract something from the bible and share it among ourselves....
结果今天sharing的题目是......"等待"....
对.....等待不是一件容易的事......
有些人...为了得到金钱, 利益......不顾身份...
不顾尊严....抛弃了等待......
结果到最后得到的......都是一些表面上的奢侈品.....
没错! 他们在生活上享尽了荣华富贵......
地位比别人高一等.....
那又如何????? 他们其实都很穷.....
穷在道德.....穷在亲情.....穷在尊严.....
为什么做人一定要找捷径......
不折手段地达到目的呢???
其实等待....未必是件不好的事情.......
因为我们等待着良机......
等待着上天给我们的机会......
在等待的同时....做好本份.....
做自己应该做的事情......
不断地充实自己....
机会就自然会来敲门....
那时后的我们不再害怕明天的困难...
也不需再为明天惊心胆跳....
因为那时的我们会向挑战说" 放马过来吧!!! 我已准备好了!!!!"
每当遇到挫折时.....
不应问"为什么又是我呢??? 为什么????"
若要这样想...只会让自己越想越伤心....
到不如问......"上天要我们在这事情上学到了什么呢????"
"他给我的挑战我应如何鼓气勇气面对呢???"
每当完成一件棘手的事情....
问问自己学到了什么.....
那一定获益良多......
人生的挫折就像天上的星星.....
或是卢沟桥的狮子----- 数不清.....
到头来.....还是得自己去面对.....
要如何面对就要看自己的本事...
自己的意志力.....自己的经验....
千万不要被这些绊脚石绊到.....
就算跌到了....痛过了....也要鼓起勇气爬起来......
a leader learns from her / his mistakes and never redo it again....
BUT a good leader learns from other people's mistakes and successes......
错过了又如何????
要爬回起来才是永远的胜利者!!!!
我???
还在等待着许多奇迹.......许多机会.....
等待我减肥成功.....
等待我考好成绩.....
等待我事业有成.....
等待我爸妈享福.....
等待我第一部轿车.....
等待我赚大钱.....
等待我做个有智慧的人......
等待建立一个幸福的家庭.....
等待自己做个好领导者....
等待自己"入得厨房....出得厅堂"(烂华文)
等待人生好多好多的第一次.....
等待他......
希望我有那么长命...
能等待并实现我这么多的"等待"......
原来学会等待也是一门高深的学问......
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我不是你想像的那么勇敢
Friday, February 20, 2009.
有时候太坚强
笑容却填不满眼眶
越是想要隐藏
歌声就唱的更响亮
直到入到心底最深处
你不要追问我
还缺了些什麽
每个人都有梦
幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望
越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最後一站
我强问我自己
现在还没有个答案
我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装
像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上
每个人都有梦
幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望
越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最後一站
我强问我自己
现在还没有个答案
我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装
像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上
我不是你想像总是扮演坚强
多想让你知道我也要个伴
放下讨厌武装
放下讨厌武装
像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上
我不是你想像的那麽勇敢
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@ lousy VaLentiNe
Saturday, February 14, 2009.
why does it have to be like that???today is a lousy day for me....
really lousy one....
it started off quite well in the morning.....
and in the afternoon....
i sat in the living hall....
having a date with the TV for about 5 hours???
watching super trio and canada's next top model....
thinking that this evening will be having a gathering with my chinese tuition teacher...
i'm on cloud nine....
thought of gambling there....
its been a while since we met....
all of a sudden a phone call came and said that the gathering was cancelled due to the teacher's family is back and he's not free....
" then may be we meet next time..." i thought to myself....
so....i'll be free the whole evening....
thinking of wat i could do.....
at last....i spent the whole evening sleeping and watching TV...
its so meaningless.....
then....i went online...and search for some info's bout psychology...
act i've never thought of being a psychologist....
but somehow...my working environment and info's from my friends who are interested in psychology kinda make me feel i wanna noe more bout it....and may be i will considere it as my future career....
so i decided to share this news with my parents....
guess wat...
they banned my idea...
and i told them bout my stand of course...
but to no avail...
they keep on saying that psychologist cant earn a living....
we argued argued and argued....
at last i cant stand it anymore...
pls !! we are in a restaurant at that time...
so i juz kept quiet..
the conversation stopped for quite a while after they had finish expressing their thoughts...
next , another arguement broke out between my parents...
its someting bout" trust"...
the arguement became worst...
i kept quiet...
asking god ....hoping that everything will be okay...
but everthing seems to go worst....
i 'm scared....
too bad i have no siblings to share my fear....
tears roll down....
i cant stand it anymore...
pls!! stop arguing....
do they noe that even if they argue among themselves...
their child will feel hurt and terrible too????
can.t they juz stop that????
why do these things have to happen on valentine's day..
shouldnt it be a lovely and romantic day for a couple???
for me...
its rather a lonely valentine....
but its okay....i'll get over it soon...
there are many valentines still...
as for my parents...
i hope that god will grant them peace and love...
safe them from all the negative thoughts...
protect my family from evils and prevent it from shattering...
i'm so desparate for love....
the love from god..
the love from my parents...
the love from my frenz...and
hopefully the love from my partner....( onli if god send him to me )
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合法年龄!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009.
我的生日快乐吗???很坦白地说我不快乐.....
一个人的生日最希望是得到家人...尤其是爸爸妈妈的祝福....
但就是往往他们忙于工作....忽略了我们....
心酸.........
一起床......等的第一句话.....等了又等....
还是等不到......
那就算了.....
我已预测到他们会忘记......
只是不想相信这是事实.....
心里满怀希望.....
希望他们会记得.......
朋友们...同事们....
衷心的祝福让我无比的感动......
也让我觉得很伤心....
朋友竟然会比父母还记得自己的生日.....
算了吧.....
爸妈......我不需要什么红包....
也不需要什么礼物....
我只需要你们的关怀......
你们的爱.....
你们的一声" 孩子...生日快乐..."
加上几句祝福.....
很难吗????
忙于工作.....工作冲昏了脑.....这全是借口....借口!!!!!!!
妈....至少你在我生日的最后一小时记得.....
但你给我的那一句敷衍的借口...让我心痛....
爸.....
难道你也忘了......
今年的生日.....
要感谢我的大姨....她是第一位亲人打电话祝福我的...
晚上还请我吃大餐.....
谢谢您的那一块生日蛋糕......
hoo.....十八岁.....LEGAL AGE edi...haha....
希望今年能活地开心....活地有意义......
活出精彩人生!!!!!
加油李紫菁!!!! 加油!!!!
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上天的生日礼物????
Tuesday, February 10, 2009.
早晨起床...
心情还蛮好的....
虽然知道今天会是很忙碌.....
但还是怀着一个开心的心情上班吧.....
真知上班后....A 生病了.....结果心情不很好.......
B 又没有上班.....还有很多东西都没有准备好....
快要上课了..... 怎么办????
结果就被当成出气桶咯....hz....不知道啊....
总之整个上午心情就变差了......
过后看见下午班的小孩....
又开心回了.......
今天不知是不是上天的安排.....
一位可爱的小男孩给了我一封感谢信....
认识他虽没多久....但小小的一封图画.....
即使有多不漂亮....自己也觉得这是一个小孩子的一份大礼物.....
虽然我不明白他想画什么......
突然觉得这份礼物很有意义....
让我开心了整个下午....
回到家....还向妈妈炫耀呢!!!!
也许这是上天给我的一份礼物吧......
hehe......
敬仪今天离开了怡保......
明天.....就在我人生重要的一天离开.....
即使她离开.....也为我留下了一份生日礼物....
让我很感动....
J...祝你一路顺风.....all the best to u.....
happy alwayz best buddy!!!!!
hmm....不知明天会是怎样的呢???
没有朋友一起庆祝生日的感觉又会是如何呢????
但即使是一句"生日快乐" ,
心里也觉得很开心了.....至少还会有人记得我的生日....
haha.....
谢谢你们啊:)
mmm....还要谢谢一位好朋友....
他是第一个人为我庆祝的......
好感动....谢谢手指会发火的你....:)
祝我生日快乐......happy birthday to me:)
明天再为你报道我人生特别的一天吧.....:)
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家好月圆......
Monday, February 9, 2009.
hmm....今天很开心哦....虽然今天是你离开的日子....
但为了不让自己去多想.....
结果做了很多事情去把事情忘掉.....
今早回到了母校.....
看见了学妹们苦念比赛的歌曲.....
心里感到很欣慰.....
看见我的接班人很有本事...心里也感到很骄傲....
今年的歌曲的确比去年来得难....
充满了挑战性.....
心血来朝....很想很想参与他们....一起作战!!!!!
我爱choir!!!!
我看比赛当天一定要请假到ST 去观赛咯!!!!
也可趁机看看我未来的学校......
今天回到了母校....
发现改变了许多......
新厕所.....新图片.....新作风.....
但唯一遗憾的是以前与朋友们一起谈笑风生....
一起乘凉的避暑地......一起练习pattern 和 sparring 的地方....
如今已被学校移为平地.....
那棵大大的大树..... 有如慈祥的母亲....为我遮风挡雨......
她的离去....让我觉得有点伤感......
我爱你....大树妈妈.....
今天突如其来了一个好消息.....
我被那个program录取了!!!!
yipee!!!! 希望这个消息不是假的啦.....
有机会増值自己.....
让自己成为一个更好的领导者....
心里感到无比的兴奋.....
SPM成绩又要出炉了.....
真的又担心又紧张.....
希望我这17 年的读书生涯没有白费掉......
希望能考取佳绩.....申请奖学金.....
到国外升学......
hm....今天的月亮很圆很亮....也很大......
不知你那儿的月亮会比这里大...这里圆...这里亮吗?????
但愿人长久...千里共长娟....
我会等你.....
加油!
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精神支柱倒塌了.....
Friday, February 6, 2009.
以往分隔了几年......我们在那团体相逢.....
那么多年....从未珍惜过对方.....
但我只知道近来几年.....
他不知不觉成为我的精神支柱.....
只要有他的存在....
心里就会有种很开心的感觉.....
不一定要彼此向望....
有他的存在...就会有安全感.....
就会很舒服.......
默默地喜欢不就很好吗???
让我知道真相只会让我更伤心.....
如今你的离开让我心情复杂....
我宁可不想知道一切.....
可能你在我心目中的地位太高了吧.....
对你的期望也特别高.....
也许现在的你不再对我有丝毫挂念....
也不再对我有任何感觉.....
无所谓....
可能你放弃了吧.....
但在你放弃之前....
很希望你能先告诉我....
让我彻底地放下....彻底地放手.....彻底地忘掉.....
也许那时是我最后一次为你掉泪了......
很怀念你为我加油打气....给我希望的声音...
很怀念你那把脆弱的声音.....
很怀念很怀念以往我们的日子....
但一切开始改变了....
我没有勇气再翻阅以往的短讯.....
没有勇气再看我的inbox messages.....haha...
真的是个苯蛋!!!! 很笨的大笨蛋!!!!!!!!!
!@#$%^&*()_+
我与你的沟通方式会出现问题吗???
你离开了...还会像以往一样...
给我鼓励吗???
让我为你分忧你的心事吗???
这一切的问题都出现在脑里......
因为我不敢问你....也不想告诉你.....
我的精神支柱就来倒塌了.....
是那团体把我们结合.....
也是那团体让我们分开....
很遗憾....上次就是我们在那儿的最后一次见面.....
再见了...好友....
祝福你一路顺风.....平平安安.....快快乐乐.....身体健康....
心想事成....万事如意......恭喜发财.....学业猛进.....
最重要你开心.....健康....我就满足了....
请你答应 我.....一定要开心健康........好吗????
希望有个英雄能英雄救美.....把这傻瓜弄醒.....
让她的生活忙忙碌碌......
一点空荡的时间都不要给她......
把她弄得累累的.....
可以吗????
上天保佑不要让她思想那么丰富.....让她活得开心....
也保佑她的朋友平安快乐....
谢谢您....:)
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我的记事本??? 矛盾....
Wednesday, February 4, 2009.
记事本
唱: 陈慧琳
曲: 周传雄
翻开随身携带的记事本
写着许多事都是关於你
你讨厌被冷落
习惯被守候
寂寞才找我
我看见自己写下的心情
把自己放在卑微的後头
等你等太久
想你泪会流
而幸福快乐是什么
爱的痛了
痛的哭了
哭的累了
日记本里页页执着
记载着你的好
像上瘾的毒药
它反覆骗着我
爱的痛了
痛的哭了
哭的累了
矛盾心里总是强求
劝自己要放手
闭上眼睛让你走
烧掉日记重新来过
*听了着首歌.....突然有种同感.....hz.....不知道....不知道.....
还是不想为妙.....但愿一切从未发生....可能会比较好受......
我应该忘记吗???? 你有放弃过这段感情吗???
我看你也许早已放下了.....
或许是我一厢情愿吧.....
放手很难........
对.....我应该开始学会放手了.......
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JicHinG in BeiJiNg......
Tuesday, February 3, 2009.
Before reading ......enjoy some photos first!!!! haha
独木桥..........
mom and i.....
baby......don pull my clothes....find your mom for milk...don find me...T.T
hmm....any leng zai wanna hold my hands???
me and my cousin "SisteR".......
热河....全家幅
v.....standing on IcE!!!!!!!!!
007
cute little Panda ....lining up for FooD:)
不到长城心不死.......到了长城拍个照:)
天安门广场
北京烤鸭.......yummy.....slirp!!!
007
cute little Panda ....lining up for FooD:)
不到长城心不死.......到了长城拍个照:) 
天安门广场
北京烤鸭.......yummy.....slirp!!!
小宝宝太冷了.....hehe....
终于回来啦!!!
回来的第二天......睡了整整十多个小时...
在那儿...不但吃了又睡...睡了又吃....
还热了又冷...冷了又热.....
结果真的过了个大肥年....
肥上加肥=超级无敌大肥婆...!!! yea!!!!
ok...现在先说飞机经验...
在飞机睡觉真的很辛苦
弄得我腰酸背痛....辗转难眠.....
回返大马时....不知是飞机司的问题还是飞机的问题...
让我们乘搭飞机的乘客体验 free fall
haha.....结果整辆飞机的乘客都大叫 一场......
那时的情景真的是惊心动魄....
吓死我了....!!!!
他的landing更恐怖!!!
让我们体验几个free fall 才land..
可能是新手吧...
没关系....凡事都有第一次....
希望你能进步咯!!! 不然乘搭马航的游客将失去信心咯....
so...这就是我的飞机餐....
面包硬....鱼冷...粉冷....不好吃....不好吃....
不过我是个"垃圾桶".....无论那种食物有多难吃....
我都会把它扫个精光....haha...
在北京很不幸...遇不到大风雪......看不见下雪....
只看见结了冰的湖与河.....ish!!!
超不爽!!! 另我更不爽的....陆续有来....
在北京的第二天.....我的MP4 就坏掉了!!!
唉哟.....真是倒霉!how can i live without music???
but at last i still live la....haha..
北京..北京....到处黄金....
they spit everywhere....and they are used to it...
actually....in my opinion...
china is rich in its economy but still poor in its culture....
yes...i canot deny that china has outstanding and knowledgable ppl..
but there are something that they should change.....
which are their BAD HABITS :
1. Spitting everywhere.....(ITS EVERYWHERE!!!!!)
2. Their way of talking...(eg. they talk as if they are scolding u)
3. The way they act.....(eg. not helpful)
4. The way they speak ...(eg. love to boast)
5. The way they do things...(eg. too cunning)
hmm...one thing interesting i discover in beijing...
他们放烟花....有如喝水....
无时无刻.....随时随地....甚至在你的车旁
炮竹声都在响.....
一间一间卖炮竹的小 店铺...有如雨后春笋般地成立....
我看如果我也卖炮竹的话....一定能赚大钱咯!!!! haha!!!
还有....我听说....在北京的乞丐一个月的月薪能高达几万块....
竟然比大'学生还要高薪...????
每天坐车" 上班"......"上班前来个热腾腾的麦当捞汉包包...
fuyo!!! 还有钱过我le
hmmm....我看我还是就此搁笔.....
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